Where Did I Go
Mood:  cool
Topic: Marriage

Is it just me or does it seem like marriage is an identity thief?  I hadn't really noticed it until about a few months ago, but it's like I got married and became a wife, but lost the woman.  I dress differently, where my hair differently, I speak and even act differently.  Yesterday I came across a picture that I took in 2003 (a year before I got married) and compared it to myself now.  I nearly had a coronary.  Who is this woman I have become... this wife!? Where is the carefree beauty in the picture.  Instead of Angie, I'm Mrs. Joe Blow.  When I run into people in the grocery store it's, "Aren't you Mrs. C---?", or "Hey Kyle's wife right?"  Not, "Hey Angie, how's it going?"

I just recently had a baby this past summer, so I'm sure soon it'll be "Lil' Kyle Jrs. mom, right?" So, I've decided to take a stand in 2007.  This will be known not as the year of the wife or the year of the mommy (even though I am proud of those titles and hold them dear) but, the year of the woman.  I can be a hard working wife and mommy without compromising the woman.

First step:  Me Holidays.  At least one day a month I will do something that doesn't include hubby and baby.  Lunch with my friends, a day of shopping, a lounge in the park with a good book( something I haven't done since being married or having a baby for that matter.)

Step Two:  I will have to make more of an effort to keep a goddess like appearance like the Angie of old, despite my husbands insecurities, but that's a blog for another day!

Step Three:  I have to remember that I define me.  Not who my child is or who I'm married to or even where I work, but me Angie C.

I know I'm not the only woman on the planet who's gone through a minor identity crisis.  And if you think I am you and everyone else is lying to yourselves (smile)  or it hasn't hit you yet.  Either way let me know.